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Matt's Pita
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sadness
Sunday, February 29, 2004 07:52 p.m.
I feel badly because matt's parents are so evil. I don't understand why everyone's parents aren't like my mom? LET YOUR FUCKING CHILDREN DO WHATEVER THEY WANT! They'll like you a lot more that way. Matt was being mean but I understand why...I think. I just wish that he wouldn't take it out on me. but I do the same so I can't really say that! I love him to death though. I'm waiting to leave with my brother but he keeps talking on the phone. Matt I love you! Talk to you sometime. bye!
saturday night FEARS
Saturday, February 28, 2004 11:10 p.m.
I hate myself. I always go for unavailable people. I like her ALOT! Ugh why do I have to be such a chicken?! I like you Carter! there I said it. But she'll never read this..so it doesn't really count now does it? I can't stop thinking about her. I know that sounds horrible since I only really started to hnag out with her last night. But I dunno there was just something about her I liked last night. Ugh she's funny, nice, cute! She's understanding. and not pushy about things. I'm being selfish though. I have a girlfriend right now and I don't care for her that way..but I'm with her so I don't have to say I'm alone. My fear is being alone. UGH! Why does it have to me?! Why can't I be outgoing? I WISH I WISH I WISH! ok I'm going to go now. love you all! I like you carter!!!!!!
Sad
Friday, February 20, 2004 11:16 p.m.
Worried about matt! I wish I could find someone for him. It makes me really sad to see him really sad like he was tonight. It makes me feel really badly because I dunno it's just so much easier for me since I'm a gay girl, there seems to be lots of lesbians. and I am seem to get girls when I don't have a girlfriend and I want one. I dunno. I'm just sad. I think I'll just push my relationship options away for now. because I want to focus on my friends happiness. and I feel like it kind of just makes it worse with me Always having options. I dunno. but I'm going to go.
Birthday girl!
Thursday, February 12, 2004 10:38 p.m.
Hey everyone! today's my birthday! I'm FINALLY 16!!! WOOT WOOT! anywho..Matt didn't call me today which made me VERY sad :-(!!!!! Shell dropped by and gave me my favorite cake from 3 sister's chocolate and some malted milk balls and 3 ballons! I was so happy becuase she played it off like she wasn't able to come. and I cried because today no one really did anything for me because I had a tooth pulled so I couldn't do much. But she surprised me! She's one of my bestest friends along with matt! I forgive him for not calling me. He was asleep at like 8:20..what a loser lol! Oh by the way I don't hate courtney anymore. so ignore the last enrty. ok well going to bed. night night!
BORED!
Thursday, February 5, 2004 01:42 p.m.
Hey guys. I'm hom from school like I am from now on tuesdays and thursdays I think. I just wanted to tell you that I HATE COURTNEY BROOKE ANDERSON! YAY! She thinks I'm spoiled. Do you guys think I'm spoiled? I don't think i am. Anywho... my teeth have really been bothering me. I can't get anyone to take me to the dentist though. Sucks to be me. I miss matt! I tried calling him last nit but he was sleeping and it was only like 7:45ish what a loser(your mom) lol! I'm just kidding matt.. I olive juice you! lol that made no sense but he knows what I mean. haha well I'm out like race cars on the track. lol I'm know I'm dumb. Bye oh yeah my birthday is in a week! YAY!
bored
Saturday, January 31, 2004 11:50 p.m.
I've noticed I haven't written in here awhile. I kind of don't feel good and my ex insist on talking to me on the phone and somethings wrong with my dog but I don't know what. my mom just called. I miss her! I love her so much! she's the best mom! haha! too tired to write. I'll write more when I'm not so blah! love ya night.
easy going day
Saturday, January 3, 2004 05:01 p.m.
Sorry I haven't written in here in a few days but I've been at my girlfriend's house since new years eve. I'm sorry. I feel kinda bad because I leave matt. and I always wonder what he does when I'm gone. He sounded really upset when I called him. I don't like him to be upset. I would help him clean his room and car if he wanted me to because I was really hoping to see him today. Kinda makes me sad. but I wouldn't blame him not wanting to hang out with me because I have kinda ditched him. I don't mean to. I really like being around courtney and I really like being around matt. I want to spend time with both of them but courtney can't go anywhere. ugh life is hard. I hope he changes his mind but if not it's ok. I love you matt. call me later
just another day
Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:34 p.m.
today was just another day. Same boring jacksonville day. Except I was with my matty poo. haha! He finally woke me up at noon. and we went to it'z cake and coffee and we were going to hold up a sign but they wouldn't let us or something. And yeah so we sat there and had tea and cake and all that great stuff. but then lauren came ewww!!! sorry don't like her very much just because she wants me to die. :-(. I don't like that. so yeah I was kinda mad and then she left. then matt and I went to five points. and then met up with christina and saw cheaper by the dozen. that was a pretty good movie. it wasn't the best i've seen like peter pan!!! but wasn't the worst. yep and then came home. yep. and talk to courtney for awhile since she called but got into toruble once again for being on the phone late. shame on her. yep. anyway..going to go love ya bye
relized something today
Sunday, December 28, 2003 10:21 p.m.
yeah..i relized today that...JACKSONVILLE IS THE MOST BORING PLACE TO LIVE! wow glad I got that off my chest haha! dori! anyway...I hung out with matt and christina and kayla again today. But earlier I went all the way to callahan with matt to see my girlfriend courtney. I love her but she procrastnates.(sorry if I spelled it wrong) She give me a gold ring. hehe I like it! i wear it on my ring finger. yep..i love her. Did I metion I love her? haha! sorry. I do though. but I love matt too. he's MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE BIG HUGE WORLD! haha! anyway.. I don't feel like typing anymore. night night
wow look...I wrote in again!
Sunday, December 28, 2003 11:26 a.m.
haha. Anyways. I was going to write in this last night but I was too tired when I got home. I hope matt got home in time. I don't want him to get into trouble with his evil parents! anyways, my night was fun. I hung out with Kayla, christina, and of course matt haha. Yeah we went to barnes and noble and the park and harris teeter and target and pizza hut and then me and matt went to his house to eat haha. Yep But I had fun. My girlfriend called me a few times and just sat there like usually. ugh don't call me unless you're going to speak to me. I hate when people do that. anyway, I skipped out on church today. I hope my mom isn't too mad. I hope she will still give me money for today. Yeah because I hate matt paying for me. I dunno I guess that's the "boy" side of me haha! anyway.. going to go. love ya. bye
Confused
Saturday, December 27, 2003 01:37 p.m.
Hey, I am really confused right now. I can't tell if my bestest friend in the whole world is mad at me right now. I haven't talked to him today and he kinda left in a hurry last night. I feel really bad. I don't know what to do. I don't want him mad at me. I can't really think of anything unless, my girlfriend is the one pissing him off because she calls his cell to talk to me. I know it's rude and I'm sorry. I will tell her to stop. I want it to be just me and him when we hang out. I love him to death and I don't want to lose him as my friend. I love you matt!
Depressed!
Friday, December 12, 2003 11:30 p.m.
Hey everyone! haha no one reads this anymore because i haven't written in it since like this summmer! I hate my life right now but hey that's normal for me. My exgirlfriend courtney and I are no longer talking. I feeled relieved but sad at the same time. I love her but I can't be with just her. I want to see other people and just experience what life has for me. Everyone needs to do that before they get old and want to settle down. Lately, I've been feeling no motivation in life at all. not in school,home,relationships, or life in general. I see no purpose to life anymore. I feel so lost. Where is the motivation in life? Looking forward to death? haha! Yeah ok what a reward for all the hard work you did in life that won't mean shit to anyone in the end. But you finally get to rest haha! OH WOW! I hate this. If I had nothing in life to look forward to then why am I here? The only person who really knows how I feel is matt. I love him to death. He is my best friend and I never want to lose him.Well I'm OutT haha!
Thursday, July 31, 2003 02:43 a.m.
hey ya'll wow I haven't been on here in a while. i'm in orlando right now. isn't that craziness! lol! it's really late too!the keyword is being GHETTO! lol right homie g matt! I knoe no one checks thiss page anymore but I di update it hehehe! go me! later! peace out!
Well.....?
Sunday, December 1, 2002 12:06 a.m.
Hey everyone,
I haven't added an entry in a while! I'M SORRY!!!!!! It's not like anyone reads this anyways but still Matt gets mad at me since I don't do it as often as I should. I'm on the phone with Matt right now!! YAY! But my mom is coming in wondering when I'm going to give back her phone and I gave her atime but I probably will give it to her later....So yeah lots of stuff has happened but if you know me you probably alrady know so yeah! I'm going to go I love you all!!! buh bye
being bad in atfer school thing
Tuesday, November 5, 2002 02:59 p.m.
I'm not really suppose to be on here but my teacher is busy so I don't think she is looking at me but just to make sure I'm getting off..Love ya!! I love you matt! talk to you later buh bye
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